/ pão de açucar • rio de janeiro / palácio belmonte • lisbon / gascony • south of france

/ this could be the last time i have to wait. but i dont know what im waiting for.
/ my punishment i suppose. i often say no. i refused to do my duty. or for what most think is my duty. and for that i feel punished. ill keep feeling punished… i have no doubt.

/ i am in disgrace, which is the… opposite of grace.
/ i ought to be terrified, but i feel… serene.
/ and there’s a kind of hope it seems. even in futility.
/ i try to make things better to myself. change the world, even just a little bit. even just if… i believe it will.